I didn’t know I would become this…

IMG_4472.jpgI didn’t know I would become a breast feeding advocate. That annoying woman you unfollow on Instagram because all she does is blab about normalizing breast feeding. That obnoxious lady that tells you almost everyone can breast feed people just choose not too. The lady that offers to go to your house to teach you how to breast feed. Yes that lady, yep that’s me.

Let’s go back about 2 years. I was baby free and had zero interest in starting a family let alone breast feeding. Then came along a my sister in law who was still breast feeding her 1 and a half year old. At the time I thought it was so inappropriate, unnatural, and weird. I just didn’t really want to hear about it or see it. I judged her. I thought she was being a bad mom by giving in to her child’s wants. I couldn’t believe that she was just comforting him I just thought it was weird. Now let’s jump back to present day. My sister in law was the first person to find out I was pregnant. She also almost immediately told me she was going to help me breast feed. I couldn’t see myself as this lady stopping my whole life just to feed this baby. Well the months went by and she gave me advice helped me do my registry and even gave me her old pump. By the time I was giving birth I was ready to go.

The first time I latched Penelope onto my breast it was euphoric. The bond between mother child and life was just… to be honest I can’t find the words. I won’t lie it hurt like hell. There were times I wanted to give up but I kept going because I had an amazing support system. My fiancé had so much experience from being around his sister he literally didn’t give me another option. She also came over and helped me learn how to use my pump.

Listen my goal was 3 months and get back to work. Then it turned to 6 and then a year. I am now at almost 11 months and don’t plan on stopping as of yet. Why you ask? Because her and I are not ready. This is probably the only REAL hobby I have ever had in my life. I am dedicated and I take it seriously. Not to say that other mothers don’t but I chose to do this. It’s not gross it’s NATURAL! I now understand what my sister in law went through. The silly questions and the shame. Maybe that’s why I feel so strongly, because I felt so negatively towards what she was doing. In the end all I know is that I am the happiest I have ever been in my life. My daughter is as healthy as I can be. I am the healthiest I have ever been because now that I know what I eat goes to her I try my best to organic and GMO free. I now dedicate myself to helping anyone around me. I have had co workers, friends, even followers reach out to me and I help them the best I can.

So I guess what I am trying to say is I’m slightly sorry for filling your feed with breast feeding stuff but it’s so awesome I can’t contain myself.

 

I want to dedicate my post to my sister in law… You are one of the strongest women I know thank you for guiding me.

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